OVERWHELMED...TO SAY THE LEAST!

Some of you know and some don't I applied for a job a few weeks ago. I have been on pins and needles waiting to hear something. I finally get the call last Friday night at 7pm. I have never applied for a job I didn't get. I was soooo happy! So here goes..........I will be an On Call Staffer for a companion company. They have over 200 employees with 2 offices. I will take all after hour calls for the company. Hopefully they will be things I can handle or refer them to call back when the office in open. I am so excited about his. For one to use the brain God gave me, two to have adult contact, three to be motivated, and four to have some money!!! I have prayed for this and waited for an opportunity to come along, and my prayers have been answered. Thank you God. I am scheduled to start on Tuesday and train for 2 weeks before I start working from home. So now the good part...Myron calls me on Saturday while working and says he wants to talk to me when he gets home. So I wait up until almost midnight. Here's the bombshell...My sister in law (the one who lived with us for 18 months rent free) is moving to Atlanta and needs to stay with us a week. Okay!!! So I am trying to stew over this. Sunday I have to take Mom to the Emergency Room..she has severe Diverticulitis in her intestines and colon. She was in major pain. Got her antibiotics and phenegran took her home, fed her, came back home. Myron had left to go move his sister??? What?? So I call him, yeah she has to be out of her apt today. I get upset and hang the phone up! Ten minutes later she calls, " Hey sis I am on the way there do you need anything before I come home?" Home, this is not her home. So to say the least I am overwhelmed! Please everyone pray for me! This week will turn in to 2 or 3. Our Anniversary is on Wednesday 13 years. 15 years together. I wanted a nice weekend together..but hopefully he will be moving her to Atlanta. Please understand I love all my family, but when you have had a household of 7, it is nice to only have 4.

Thankfullness!

I have not blogged as much as I would like to lately, I just can't find the time. I worked several days last week. One day in particular stood out and I wanted to write about it. It made me realize GOD is so good! I worked in the Special Education room at Sloan & Shayla's school on Thursday. It was such an emotional day. I feel I am very fortunate in the fact that cognitively Sloan is very bright. I feel we broke the odds against us when she began to talk. I was told by several physicians she never would. She began to sign at about 13 months, an we all did very well. I would have been okay with that, but she always strived for more. She began to speak at around 26-27 months old. We were so happy, and she has never stopped talking! There was a student I fell in love with. Without breaking HIPPA violations or confidentiality, she has C.P. and M.R. not sure of all of her conditions. I was so attracted to her. Unlike Sloan, she can walk. Her talking is very limited. There are several words you cannot use with her because they upset her. Of course, I would be the one to tell her "no", and boy did I pay for it. She was very upset. She went into a horrible fit. She did this 4 times in one day. She cried, tried to hurt herself and others. I had to go the restroom and cry. I felt so helpless. I looked to GOD for strength and guidance. I made it thru the rest of the day fine. I worked with several boys and had a good time. By the end of the day I was exhausted. Before, I left the little girl came up to me and told me Thank You and I Love you! WOW!! They said she has never done that before. They did not even know she knew the words. I am so glad for the opportunity to work with these kids. So often, I see the other kids and teachers who won't even give them the time of day. It furiates me. They are somebody's child. GODS child. Before, I was a parent of a Special Needs child, I never knew of any children with special needs. It is eye-opening. You learn so much from them. I am so thankful for my children. I am thankful Sloan has a voice. She keeps us smiling all the time, and you never know what she will say next. This morning it was,"Mama you are so beautiful. Why can't my hair be like yours?" I told her we would buy some bleach and do her hair blonde. She said,"Mom mixed girls don't have blonde hair!" I laughed and laughed. Then she said "But I am half white!" HA! HA! Never a dull moment in the multi-race family!

Happy New Year!

For starters we had a great Christmas! It was different just the 4 of us in the house on a major holiday, and I suppose I'll get used to it. I just love being surrounded by family. I never thought I would miss Mom not being with us as much as I truly do. Shelby is who I miss most. I just feel the need to be in her life. I want to nurture her and Mother her like I have for the past 10 years. Phone calls, emails, and texts just aren't the same. This I guess I will get used to as well. 2008 was a very hard year, I guess that is why I am so excited about 2009. I of course want to make drastic changes in all areas of my life, but who doesn't? I am not making resolutions that I won't keep, been there done that. I just want to set goals and meet them. I want to do things right, which is what I have always wanted it just seems I get bogged down by one thing or another. Before school let out for break, Sloan's Resource Teacher and I agreed to let her stay in her classroom the majority of the day and focus on the things she really needs..Reading/Language Arts etc. She goes to Special Ed. Math and I hope this plan is going to work. We have to keep trying until we get it right. I am so fortunate that her teacher is willing to do this. I am so thankful to know she cares so much. Shayla is still not excited about school in general, or much else these days. She is however becoming a fabulous reader. She has read all of the Twilight Series and four other books in the last month. This excites me. I have enjoyed them being home and will be happy for them to go back to school. We all do better on a routine. Consistency is the key. I have realized lately that I am so lucky to have the things I have and I know I take things for granted. I want to be more inspired and positive. It is hard, never easy for no one. I think sometimes I get caught up in the fact that I have diabetes, neuropathy, a broke foot again, Sloan has C.P., I constantly have to have someone in my home to care for her because I can't. It sucks, but it is my life. I am going to deal with it better. I Thank God everyday for my family they hinder, but they do help, my friends..always listen to me even when there are no words to say.
I wish for everyone a wonderful New Year and peace in their heart!