I can't believe he is 20!

I can't believe my Firstborn is 20! Jacob Chance my most precious baby is 20 years old today! 20 years ago today, I truly felt like I became a mother. My little sister who was 17 at the time had just given birth to the most precious angel. When I held him for the first time I got this wonderful feeling like nothing I have ever felt before. It makes me cry everytime I think of it! He was 7lbs. 9ozs. 20" long. He was gorgeous. From the very beginning we had a bond like no other. I saw him everyday. He was my LIFE! Everywhere I went he went. Yes, this included dates. My first husband was ohh so jealous! In his fits of rage he always said," all I cared about was Chance". He was so right! He was the best baby. Never cried, always happy. A comedian he was. Stealing cigarettes out of the ashtray poking (as he called it) behind his Daddy's recliner. On a certain holiday he played a tampon for a trumpet. Hilarious he was! They moved to the sticks of Pleasant View when he was 4 and this was hard. He was no longer that close. So many a night I packed up and spent the night with him. He loved this. He loved Power Rangers and Batman. You could always find him dressed up as one. My favorite memories are of George, his imaginary friend who went everywhere with us. We always has to buckle him up im the car,or put him the highchair at the restaurants. He loved his My Buddy Doll I got him. He was so smart he learned so well. He always did great in school. He is now a Sophomore at MTSU and has a 3.8 average studying Criminal Law. He will one day own the family's Bonding Company. He is such a brilliant young man. Handsome OMG, the girls love him. I am still in awe that he is mine. I love him more with each passing day. It is amazing that he is such a great kid. He has faced his hardships. He has been to Rehab for alcohol, and he has done things I never thought he would do. Does that mean you stop loving someone? No way, you just encourage them and guide them the best way you know how. I talk to him often and I tell him how much he means to me. I tell him how proud I am. He is my Heart and nothing can change that. Life is hard and at 20 it is not easy. There are things I wish I could go back and change, but you can't. I just pray for my angel. I pray God will guide him and give him the strength not to give in to temptation and drink. I am thankful for my sister who sacrificed her life for him. She has been an excellent mother and I love her so. Happy Birthday Chance, I love you unconditionally!