Neglect!

What a word!!! No posts lately, as this has also fallen into the category of "Neglect" with all the other million things. Sloan was terribly ill this morning. I should have known when she told her Daddy last night "I don't feel like going to the movies" that something was up. She never turns down a movie, and never misses a chance to spend time with Daddy. She awoke at 5:00 throwing up. It is so hard for her. I am trying to get up from bed with her, turn her over on her side (she used to aspirate on liquids), and scream for Myron all at once. She threw up 3 times in an hour. She got 3 baths, and a morning in Holly J's Beauty Salon. She was so lethargic. I washed her hair, dried it, and straightened it. Yes, a 3 hour process. Gotta love a girl with lots of hair! Myron is so good with her. He has been home all weekend and we have enjoyed it so much. After all of this, I sat down with Shayla. I have been on the "Worst Mommy in the world" list with her. I never do or say the right thing these days. She is so mature, and helps me with Sloan so much I feel I neglect her. How am I supposed to balance it all? I have been praying diligently about this. I was the MIDDLE child and Lord knows I felt I never fit in. I have tried each day to set aside time for just her and I. My friends and I met this week to work on coordination of Sloan's Spaghetti Supper and Silent Auction. It is going well. Blue Cross denied our request for 12 hour shifts. This stinks! My health is still not great, and I really need help the majority of everyday. I will just continue on as we have in the past. I need to work on my sugar levels. I hate this disease. It controls me, and I should control it! I am making a committment to myself to take better care of myself. I have to. Neglect is not a word I want in my vocabulary.