WHY?

The question is why? Why is anything the way it is? I am and have been so terribly overwhelmed by so many things lately and the harder I try the worse it gets. I am very hurt becasue of friends who I give my all to and the are only around when it benefits them. The people I thought cared really are only concerned with themselves and that is again one reason we have our own families and own sets of problems. It just hurts because I have never felt so alone as I have lately. I am planning on having reconstructive foot surgery in the near future. One foot at a time. Joint replacement in my 1st two toes in each foot and tendons will be taken from my legs and placed in my feet. The down time for each foot will be around 12 weeks. Just when I thought I had this figured out I have learned Sloan may need her hip plate replaced. This is devastating. Her right knee is growing outward and may also need surgery. As a parent that has seen this child go thru 4 surgeries already, it rips at my heart. I can't even comprehend it at this time. Where will my stregnth come from? WHY? She has so much to overcome each and everyday that I cannot begin to phathom all of this and she is consoleing me thru it. She is an amazing child and I have been given so much by being her mother. She has had more and more temper tanrums lately that have brought on the seizures. YUCK! Not fun at all. I just pray the good Lord will continue to carry me thru for whatever reason and I will struggle thru the days ahead.