Hustle & Bustle

For starters we have all been sick. Of course the diabetic got sick first and kept it the longest! So many things have went on lately, I don't know where to begin. We travelled to N.C. the weekend before Thanksgiving to surprise my in-laws. They were ecstatic. The girls had a wonderful time and so did Myron and I. It is so pleasant to get away. Our trip was short due to Myron's work schedule. We then went to Sha's for our family Thanksgiving. It was so nice. I cooked for 2 days and loved it. I love my nephews. I wish I could spend more time with them. They are growing up so fast. On Wednesday of last week Sloan had her 6 month check up with the Neurologist. All was well. He wants to increase her seizure meds, however I do not feel the need at this time. On Thursday, I had her follow-up from her I.E.P. that was to assure me all things were in order and of course they were not. I spent another 4 hours going over all the same things as the last meeting. The good thing was the Vision Assessment results and boy, did I learn so much. She explained the depth perception and peripheral fields that Sloan can actually see. It was amazing.
It all makes so much more sense. I think this really helped more than anything. The teachers can now understand how and why she runs over their toes etc...Her wheelchair is going in for repairs on Tuesday and we are so glad. This chair as I have said costs $23,000. It is getting over $6,000 in repairs. It is less than 2 years old. Need I say more? It is very different around our house this year for Christmas. For the last 6 years we have put up 6 trees and tons of decorations. No Mom downstairs, or Bubba and Shelby. I miss them. So we have 1 tree in the living room and 1 in the kitchen. The girls opted not to put theirs up. I have such a hard time with change. We are just so different as a family the 4 of us. It is wonderful! I just love being surrounded by people. This week I am working at the girls school 4 days. Yahoo!

Ball of Emotions!

This has been an OK week. Other than the fall on Monday, it has all fallen into place. I have been so emotional. I guess being cooped up in the house and unable to move around freely can do that to you. I stated in my last post that a few of my friends had lost loved ones lately and that has really hit me hard. I think the worst of all was when my little sister said "he is not dead, but he is gone!" I hurt so badly for her. Like I stated before going thru a divorce is horrible. Been there, done that! It sucks. I think the repercusions of it all is that it forces me to remember those days. The worst of all is remembering my Daddy walk out on us 3 kids. It did feel like he died. I try to be a strong person, especially for my kids but lately I have a harder time. I pray for my friends, and my family. I pray GOD will see us all thru.

Brittle Bones!

For those of you who don't know yet...yes I broke my tailbone again! It's either diabetes or these brittle bones. I fell getting Sloan in the house using the lift..long story..Anywho..Sloan's I.E.P. went great last week. Lots of things were addressed and some changes for the better were made. She is getting a Laptop from the Vision department to use in class. I think we are all on the same page now! I am truly overwhelmed at the teacher involvement and eagerness to help. Sloan and Shayla both need glasses now. Shayla has a mild case of nearsightedness, Sloan on the other hand is legally blind we know. We had a great weekend and good week considering all! I have spent alot of time with Sha and she is steadily progressing. I am trying to help her as much as possible. Chance did not come home over the weekend so it was hard not seeing him. I have several friends that have lost a loved one in the past few weeks, and I really have realized near or far how much I truly love my friends! Thanks for always being there!

Can we say...versatile????

It has been a great week. I again spent last Saturday night with Sha and Chance. We had a blast! He makes me so very happy. Sha had been cleaning out the bookcases and shelves in the great room and she was ohh so sad! We were trying everything to cheer her up! Chance and I watched the TN/AL game together. He built us a fire and we all slept in the great room. Or should I say they slept. I read, took 2 baths and watched TV all night. I am still having severe back pain. I cleaned alot on my house the first of the week. The girls were sick on Mon. and Tues. I spent 4.5 hours @ SMS on Sloans I.E.P. on Tuesday. We have a really good plan in place now and I am very happy. I feel after much hard work and effort on my part, we are all on the same page now.
I worked @ Coopertown Elementary on Thursday with Kindergartner's and it was wonderful! I had a very nice day. Today I worked @ the girls school and loved it! I only had one block class that was a little rowdy. One of the teacher's I worked with, Sha used to keep her kids @ PVES, and Tad coaches her son in basketball. I forget what a small world it is sometimes. Myron has spent so much time with us this week and it has made all the difference in the world. We went to a Chili Supper at SMS last night and tonight we are going to see HSM3. Yahoo! Thank You God for all things big and small, and versatility!

Sisterly Love!

Saturday Night I had the pleasure of spending the night with my little sister. We had a blast! We ordered out from Ruby Tuesday's. Yummy! I have not eaten out in awhile, so I loved it! The chocolate tall cake was the best! We watched a movie, and just enjoyed being with each other. Chance was there and I spent good quality time with him. He is struggling with Life in general right now. I am praying for God to touch his heart and give him strength and guidance. He is such an intelligent young man, I just feel he is lost in all of the chaos of the present situation. On Sunday morning we watched a church service that I watch a lot and the theme was "Those Left Behind." It could be a widow/widower, a wife/husband of divorce, parents of a child that died, and the last one he mentioned was a handicapped child who could not do what all the other kids were doing. This touched me so deeply. All of these thoughts began to overcome my brain. Sloan is experiencing this at the present time. She really wants to cheer. There's no way for me to get her there. She never gets to go to grocery with me. Just the simple things we take for granted day in and day out she would love to experience. I feel so helpless sometimes. On the other hand I look at all I am able to do and have done in the past. I will eventually get a handicap accessible van and we can do more things. That sermon ended with feel blessed with what you have. My child is alive and capable of doing things I thought she would never accomplish. I am blessed because every time I look at both of my girls I see two beautiful smiles.

Glamourocity Fashion Show

Tonight I was treated to the best fashion show ever! My 3 girls set it all up. Sloan and Shayla were the Models and Shelby was the Designer. It started @ 5:30pm. It ended @ 11:00pm. I love when they do this. When they were younger the had a singing group named Melodee! They sang for hours on end. I have enjoyed my week with them. I really am not so upset we did not get to go for a mini vacation like planned, but we have had fun! Jackie O' bought a new house so she could not come to visit. At first I was sad, but I am so excited for her Clay, and Charlie. I cannot wait to go visit.
I have struggled with my emotions this week. I have been sick watching my little sister hurt, and go thru such agony of filing for divorce. I have helped her a lot and she is going to be fine, she just needs time. After 21 years, it is devastating....no matter the cause.
Myron bless his heart has worked so hard this last week I am tired for him. The girls greet him as if they never see him. (sad, but they don't) I am thankful for him and the fact he gets up and goes to work everyday. We are focusing on a lot of things and trying to enhance a better relationship. It is so hard sometimes.
I have to work 2 days next week so far and Sloan has an I.E.P. on Thursday. Yay for me! I have spent numerous hours on phone calls and emails. This is really a big deal. I don't look forward to it. I wish I felt better about it. I feel as if it is me against the world. I could go on and on about it. I have made my Christmas list and actually have several presents already. We are going to try and go to North Carolina during the holidays. We haven't been at Christmas time in years. It is always fun, the girls get so overwhelmed by the family they never get to see. I plan on cooking Thanksgiving here, and go to Tad & Kara's for Christmas. That is going to be different. For the last 20 years we went to Sha's house.
I feel like my life has drastically changed in the last 6-7 months and the older I get the worse I am. I do not like change. New house, new schools etc.. I am trying to adjust but it has really been difficult. As things go I must prevail. I pray for GOD to give me strength and guidance to do His will.

An Advocate I Am!

Okay, I have been really stressed lately at the fact everyone seems to think they can run my child''s life. First it was the O.T. telling her she couldn't wear Flip Flops to school. She is a normal 11 year old and she CAN and WILL wear Flip Flops. It only took 1 phone call to straighten that one out. Why is she concerned about my child wearing them??? She also was overly concerned about Sloan running into things....Hello, she is legally blind! Next it is the P.T. telling her she can't bring her wheelchair back to school because it is broken! She then leaves me a not so nice voicemail. Okay, the chair is a piece of SHIT! You all know that. $23,000 for a piece of junk! It has been all along. Do they want to pay the $210 balance for services we owe and another $75 for them to come out again? Long story short..Myron worked on it for 3 hours. It is working fine. She took it to school the next day and will drive it everyday. Does anyone understand?? Do they walk in my shoes? Hell no! Don't talk to my child, talk to me! She has been so upset lately over everyone telling her what to do. She really takes things personal. I struggle with trying not to be so defensive, but leave her alone. She had a seizure Thursday night and I truly believe it was because she has been so upset.
The other Drama! My sister has filed for divorce. It has been a long time coming. It is heart breaking! She is overall doing well. I have been there and whether it be 4 years like mine, or 21 years like hers it is never easy. That is the only time in my life I truly felt like a failure. Chance is taking it pretty hard but he is strong and I know he will overcome. I pray so diligently for my sister. She is not the same since her breakdown. She is not as strong as she was. I am an advocate for her too, and I will fight to keep her strong..this too shall pass!
My Jackie O' will be here in a week and I cannot wait. I miss her so. I need her beside me. I am not whole without her. We plan on doing fun things while she is here. The girls are on fall break and we may take a min vacation, you know she spoils us like that! She is such a blessing to me and all of my friends are. They each and everyone mean so much!
I am going to visit my Poppy tomorrow, well today since it is 2am. I can't wait to see him. We are going out to eat and to the Antique Shops in Nolensville. That is our favorite place to go.
My brother is 42 today! He is a good brother. He has really helped Sha. He is a great husband and father. I am s proud he is mine. Happy Birthday Bo-Bo!